THANK YOU SO MUCH NATALIE

She'z beautiful and i have already named her,

.Meet Dax.

"The First 35mm Fisheye Compact Camera of the World"

!!ILOVEHER!!

&& Gimmie 2weekz for thiz badboy to be minez...

ill start w/ thiz nikon d60 and work my way up.

:] CHECC BAKK SOON [:

Dear 2008 ,

Thiz has to be my lifez biggest turning point. You gave me 365 dayz of pure hell and ultimately killed me internally.

Never the less a new me was reborn. Smarter , more mature and more prepared for the obstacles life will throw at me.

Thiz year i have made some of the best mistakez of my life.

Though i felt like 2008 depicted the face of evil ,
looking back at it all i now conceder thiz year a blessing in disguise.

Without all the eventz that have taken place thiz year id be a lost soul.
Niave and living a lie.

Being oblivious to the obvious is one thing , but with knowledge of...
why choose to remain in the dark.?

Recognizng and Accepting the real must have been the most painful liberating feeling ive ever experienced.

Thiz iz a year i can say i regret nothing. If i had the chance to re-live it (i mean.. id never fk`ng do it, ha.) but if the chance were presented to me , i wouldent change a thing.

I have mended endz , enimies have became friendz and although doorz have closed , many have opend.

People have taken on different rollz in my life , rollz more suitable for them and i.

True colorz have made themselvez apparent and thingz of which were synthetic and/or fabricated have unraveled.

I appreciate you all for being. . . .who you are.

I leave thiz year with no held gruges ;; 08 You were a devine tragedy. Thank You for Life.!

&& to 2009 , i am prepared for any and everything you have to throw at me. I have a new deck of cardz and thiz time ill play them right.!



Sincerely , Changed.



--N0_odle `_`

SLAPP`D BY. . .

soo. . . . im out of harmony w/ reality
but i dnt wanna be tuned
cuz if i realize factz and face the truth
my world may cum crashing down to soon

im at a time where i cant tell
the difference between then an now
with the impact of these eventz hitting
itz hard for me to figure out how

timez disolving along with everything that once held some sort of significance to me
laying here an the room startz spinning as reality beginz to pierce through me

dnt know how i got here nor where im headed
but i distinctly remember where ive been and all the tearz ive shed

try not to endulge in the few good thingz i have
cuz it alwayz seemz as once you bask , all good thingz go bad

all my life ive searched for a purpose
17yrz. tryna find what my worth is..
an 17yrz. ive came up w/ nothing
but i thought everyone was good at somthing...

thiz only makez my dayz harder
how do i stay content knowin everyonez almost done
while i still remain a starter..

what i tried to avoid has already begun
my worldz come crashing down an thiz burden wayz a ton

but maybe if i let it fall vs. tryna hold it together
ill feel the liberation ive longed for an be set free forever
FIN.

--N0_odle =/

Fairwellz...

As she leanz over and rapz her armz around my neck everything seemz to slowly fade away..

The melody frum the stero decreases to subtle bacground music , the sound of raindropz hitting the ground all become one beat that begin to drop simotaniousley with her tearz

Itz hard to believe everything cudd change in a day..

Gripping her torso tightley , i pull her closer.

With every motion increasing the preasure between our bodiez another tear fallz ,
wanting time to stand still i wish there was someway to stall

My breathz become slow and deep
while cradeling tearz in my eyez..
I feel as if i let them go.. id be loosing so much more then my pride.

--N0_odle u_u

I Invision

The image in my dreamz being so complex
it may be near impossible to put it in context. . .
never the less , ill try my best.

A figure whoz staturez similiar to minez with a vibrant glow at itz core
Cuddent make much of it at first but now i gradually see more.

Never have i seen so much passion held in onez eyez
the path way past deception cause eyez wont lie
a smile so peaceful itd set me to ease ,
but youd have to see it yourself cause what im sayingz the least.

Could never admit to it so these feelingz i must suppress
unsure of wat you want so id rather reveal less
. . . .if only i had the chance to see thee other sidez. . . . .
but im to far , Shy..
so the comfort of my dreamz remainz my alibi.

If only i could grab hold. . .
from a mocha skin tone to a curved back bone
i often picture our bodys inertwined
chillz creeping down my spine simply from your touch
-what my soul has longed for.

Id pull you closer anticipating the kiss
but the feelingz id recieve is already what i seem to miss.

--N0_odle ^_^

'Internally You Murder Me'

Lust me , decieve me , betray me , leave me
and all i ever did was adore you.

Gave you all of me better then my best
an yet i cuddent gain more of you.

Thiz unhealthy obssession with the love
ill never receive
and you continue to string me along motivated by your greed.

Build me up to tear me down and i see it coming each time.
Prepare myself for your next lie , then continue on like everythingz fine.

But yet these liez that you feed to me. . . . .
the liez you create to blind my faith an decieve me ,
to remain in control , lead me away from the truth ,
have me feelin like thee only right ive ever known was you.

In one ear then to my head , your liez rule my mind.
Pierce my heart and seepz through my soul slowly these liez devour me whole..

I accept everything for what it is cause the love my heart holdz for you ,
but do know that your killing me slow
and my heartz beggining to turn cold for you.

--N0_odle '_'

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^MY BENNY^

^MELROSE (06)^

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^Mykale , Brady , Joonie , Tana^